--Dreams

okay the past two nights ive had weirrdd dreams. . .

the first one was a series of dreams in one night , but i only distinctively remember chillin with this girl , an old friend from middle school that i no longer associate with cuz we grew distant and grew into the ppl we're supposed to be - but thats a whole different story for a different time - in the dream she complained about how she just washed her hair , but couldn't get out all the conditioner. . . so i helped her wash her hair out again. had her lean over the tub , i took the shower head and rubbed the conditioner out myself lol
the point is , im washing out the hair of someone i can't stand in real life. . . .that's a lot of affection for someone im not even friends with..

i woke up kinda missing her, cuz at one point she was a part of my daily life and pretty much like a bestie and now we barely say hi to each other when we see each other and that's fine because i couldn't be her friend today if i wanted to...
i woke up feelin like rev run chillin in his bath tub at the end of every episode of "Run's House" where he reminisces over the moral's of his day.
My dream made me realize that [in some* cases) it's not that i "can't stand" someone . . .it's the fact that i used to be a part of their life, and they used to be a part of mine ,  and i can't stand that things aren't good any more and that we've grown in different directions to where we couldn't have worked it out.

My second dream, the one i had last night - i was bout to fight the one girl i trueeeellyyy can not stand & those close to me know exactly who it is.
like i was extra extra heated , i was bout to beat ha ass lol idk where we were but it was just me and her , we had got into it and i think we both had people comin to back us up lol
and then before i knew it , we were talkin and workin things out . . . ? yeah i know right.
we were solving our problems, seeing eye to eye and i remember thinking in my dream "too bad this and that happened cuz if we didn't have history, she'd prolly be one of my good friends because of how alike we are"
and we ended up spending my bday party at this family friend's mexican restaurant with our friends...

That one really stumped the hell outta me cuz im having dreams about people im not friends with?
i wasn't even thinking about them lately . . .so that makes me think that in my conscience , i really don't want to hold grudges and have bad chemistry with people. i really do wanna work things out but thats not gonna happen because i needa let go of these people , they're not supposed to be in my life for ever , they're more seasonal , there to put me in situations and teach me lessons. but i believe that when u have crazy dreams, that it's your mind , body & soul telling you something. you get messages sent in dreams because you won't sit still long enough to pay attention when you're conscious lol i believe dreams could be your mind , body & soul's way of giving you crypt answers to problems you may or may not have known you're having. . .

If you have dreams that relate to your real life, maybe you should pay attention :)
if not , you're probably just dreaming about the last thing you were thinking about before you fell asleep lol im sure we've all heard that one

peace , love &. good dreams :)


-ATHENA

"People spend their whole lives trying to live up to other people's expectations and being told what to do. I say, screw that. Be free. Do what you want, go where you want, and reach for the sky because life has no limits or boundaries. Boundaries are just other people's fears, and limits are just other people’s expectations. You only get one chance to do all the things that life offers you. Have no enemies, no regrets, no fears and then you'll really have lived life."


I haven't lived with much regret. . . yet most memories of my freshman year at UofL has a touch of regret. I look back and i realize now how much i wore my heart on my sleeve or in some cases couldn't care less . . i realized the potential danger i put myself & some friends in . . . as well as the things i never did that i wish i would have......

it's clear to me that the only way to leave these regrets , is to right my wrongs and learn from my mistakes. I transferred to Morgan State University for my second year of college :) and i guarentee i'm comin in stronger and wayy smarter this year than last year. with every new chapter of your life's story comes -- strength . wisdom &. growth
i'm excited for my Fresh start : ]

I am Complete.

So, I know that we've been slacking on the updates about our lives but I'm determined to get back on this and get back in the groove of things.

Much needed update.

--Pretty excited about going into my sophmore year of college, I finally have my plan and I know what I'm doing as far as a career and school go. Working my way to the top one small step at a time. =)
Life is life. I'm figuring out who's worth being close to me and who's not (as mean as that is to say). But I think that we can all agree that some people, no matter how much we want them in our lives, just aren't meant to stay in it.

L.O.V.E--such a complicated thing. As for the moment- I, myself, am complete. I don't need my 'other half', my boo, my love. I need me-my family-and my circle. If i fall in love great-but trust that love is not what my mind is set on.

Summer is almost over and I haven't done much. Went to Maryland for a couple of days--what a complicated/good/hard trip to take. Spent time with some of the people who mean the most to me. Overall it's been a relaxing and hot summer. Freakin' humidity here sucks so much. =/

Soo-Finishing up this year at my community college and then I'll offically be a Hilltopper. Couldn't be more excited to get my life started.

Updated image. So much as changed since this picture though--hair shorter, and working on my body. I'll update with those later.

Lots of love.